I don't know what it is but my body clock has been off lately...when I desire to get up at 5am to start my day I find it really hard to wake up, however almost every night I wake up at 2:30am-3am absolutely wide awake. And as I lay awake on my bed contemplating if I should try to go back to sleep, I am reminded of Psalm 63...
1 O God, You are my God;
Early will I seek You;
My soul thirsts for You;
My flesh longs for You
In a dry and thirsty land
Where there is no water.
2 So I have looked for You in the sanctuary,
To see Your power and Your glory.
3 Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
4 Thus I will bless You while I live;
I will lift up my hands in Your name.
5 My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness,
And my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips.
6 When I remember You on my bed,
I meditate on You in the night watches.
7 Because You have been my help,
Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.
8 My soul follows close behind You;
Your right hand upholds me...
Sometimes I am so caught up in the business of life I find it hard to find that place of quiet stillness. I have always loved the early hours of the morning, because it is probably one of the best times for me when I can think clearly and meditate on the many things that race through my mind. The world around me sleeps and there are few distractions...
I am so hungry for my Daily Bread, and most times sadly I find I go the day on an appetizer portion of the Word...I cry out to the Lord so often take me deeper! I desire a full portion...to be filled...even though I get fed through the Word on Sundays and various times through the week at bible studies or listening to teachings while I am driving...it is not the same as that times of it being just me, being still, before the Lords feet and asking Him to reveal to me specifically what He desires to speak to me...
Often I feel an Alice in Wonderland effect...the deeper I go in my relationship with the Lord...the farther and more overwhelming His vastness seems...and I can't ever wrap my mind around it...curiouser and curiouser...and always I long to go so much deeper...taking another step closer to His glory...My prayer Lord give me a clear mind and captivate my thoughts...may my focus be on You solely...
He is my sustenance in every way shape and form...it is only when He becomes more precious to me than all besides; when He becomes to me more real that all else: and when I love Him more than I love any other, then and only then will I know complete satisfaction!
In that glorious hope I praise Him...no one else will ever satisfy me the way my Savior does...no one else will ever hold my heart as He does.
Lord guide my steps and protect my foot from stumbling...May I follow in the shadow of Your wings forevermore. Amen.
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